I think I'm a bad person. Actually there's nobody in my life that could tell me I'm a good person. I don't kill animals or kick babies, but I think I'm worst then that. I take so many things for granted and get angry at people when they take those things away instead of being grateful for the time I had with them. I'm mean. If I'm not in an exceptionally good mood I am the bitchiest person I know, more so to the people that care about me the most. I test people. I test people sooooo hard and in such cruel ways just for something to complain about. I can't stand to look at myself anymore. I just want to run away to somewhere where nobody knows me so I can start over and try to be a better person. I just feel so much negative energy around me all the time and its driving me insane. I want to help people, I love people. I love the idea of people helping people and all that miracle stuff. But I am a big hipocrit because I don't possess the values that I respect and look for so much in others. I suck.
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dutchuncle
said 1 years ago
Seems like an awful negative shift in yourself-perception recently. Bad things happen to good people often enough, & if some bad things happened to you recently, it's not necessarily that you deserved them. You seem like you have tremendous potential. If there is something to the hypocrite thing, I think it takes everyone a long time to square that away, one little improvement at a time. You are a step ahead of a lot of people just if you KNOW the values you respect. There are a lot more pitfalls now than in your parents' days, but if you watch the road carefully, you can navcigate around them. Saying No is part of the deal, of course! Hang in there! [HEART][THUMBUP][HEART]
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